Life in general

Wow! That is a loaded topic, life... So much has changed in my life from the time I was young to now. I have been lucky enough to find love, I was unfortunate enough to find a love that couldn't last, I have suffered terrible heartache, made the hardest decision a person could ever have to make, I have surpassed my fears and have gone back to school, (and yes, I have cried over homework already). I look at all the hardships in my life and I think about what kind of person I would be today if I had not gone through all the things I have gone through in my life.

For one, had I not married Jordan, I never would have had the privilege to bring a child of my Heavenly Father into this world, I never would have gone through the mental fight day after day deciding what I was going to do with my unborn child. I never would have been able to bless a wonderful family with one of God's children, and what a blessing that has been for me. I also would not know the kind of man I want to spend forever with, had I not spent some time with the wrong one..

I have overcome my fear of failing, and went back to school! Had I not gone back to school, I wouldn't realize just how much I should have remembered all my times tables.... UGH!! Had I not gone back to school, I never would have signed up for my Social Dance class, and had I not signed up for my Social Dance Class, I never would have met and danced with Jameson. Yes, I met a boy! And yes, we held hands the first day! Hahahah! Who knows, maybe I will do something else out of the ordinary for me, and ask him out sometime.. He's 21, LDS and single, why not? Even if we don't go on a "date" it'd still be fun to have him as a friend.. Besides, he's a really good dancer, and he's not much taller than me, which I kinda like!! Hahaha!! Had I not met Jameson, I never would have realized how fun it is to get that feeling in your tummy when you catch a cute guy looking your way.. I feel like a brand new person, out in search of her destiny..

Wow, that was kind of fun! My English teacher had us do a "Free Write" in class today where you just start typing, well, that was my version of a free write about me..

So, something funny that happened to me in dance today... We are learning the Meregnue as our first dance, and we were practicing turns, and my partner, (not Jameson) but this guy, who's name I THINK is Mike.. (in my Computer Essentials Class) turned me a little too quickly, and I TOTALLY fell into him! Had we not been holding hands, my face, and otherbody parts would have very ungraciously met the floor, instead of my partners chest! I was MORTIFIED!!! But we just laughed!! And I turned about 50 shades of red because my teacher SAW my not so graceful turn and BURSTS out laughing!!! Oh well!! If I don't learn anything in this class, I will learn that it's ok to laugh at yourself!!

So, I have my first night at Institute tomorrow night, and I also signed up for the Institute Choir. I am slowly but surely getting myself back out there!! Wish me luck!! I will need it!! Especially if I keep on wiping out in class! Hahaha!! How embarrassing!?!?!? Oh well... I knew I wasn't graceful before I signed up for the class, now I fear I will earn just how ungraceful I really am!! Another funny thing, my mom asked me to show her the footwork for the Merengue, and for those of you unfamiliar with it, a LOT of hip action is involved.. I think with a lot of work and a lot of laughter, my mom will be able to do it! :) It just made me laugh watching her try to move her hips.. I love you mom!!

Well, I should hit the sack now, I have an Institute breakfast in the morning!! Ahhh! Meeting new people makes me nervous!! Maybe I just need to fall into people as an icebreaker!!