For the longest time I have been struggling with a very serious problem, I am not proud of it, but for the longest time I have despised what I saw whenever I looked in the mirror. So ashamed at how I had let myself go and not knowing what to do about it,and not having the motivation to do anything about it. You could say, I was happy to just hate everything about myself. I am thrilled to say that is no longer an option for me. If I do not do something to change the way I look and become healthy, I will never be able to truly love myself the way a person should love themself. Today, I start on a journey that will more than likely kick my butt, more frequently than not, but the end result will definitely be worth it. Today I start to change. And it all begins with this extremely embarrassing admission. At my heaviest, I was 210 pounds, and I have managed to get down to 199.5, but there is still a very long way to go. I checked my bmi and when I saw the word OBESE, I knew something had to change, and fast! I do not want to be embarrassed or ashamed of my body anymore, I want to be able to run around with Aiden and not get winded after 5 minutes. I want to have a healthy active life, and you know what, I deserve it! Today I pledge to contine to eat right, and to exercize daily whether I feel like it or not. Yes this journey will not be easy and yes, I will want to give up and quit, but I will not quit! I owe it to myself to stick to it and become the woman I was meant to be. So for my first workout challenge, I am going to attack my abdominals. I start my Russian or Mason Twist Challenge with 25 twists, increasing by 5 with a rest day every 4th day, on day 30, I WILL end with 200! Scary number! You basically sit on the ground with your legs in the air, slightly leaning back, holding your hands in front of you, you make a twisting motion and try and tap your knuckles on the ground on either side of you. Yhis challenge I will not be doing completely on my own, Josh's 12 year old son Dallan has agreed to join me in the madness. Please bar with me, or ignore my posts iver the next little while, as I will be usi g my blog to document my journey to a better me. I will be posting all the exercizes I do if you feel like joining me. The more the merrier right? Wish me luck, because I know I will need it. And please feel free to ask how it is going. It will help me to stick with it if I know any one of you could randomly ask how it is going.